I can fit into your world,
if you just let me.
I will pull myself in at the edges,
trim away the parts that don’t belong,
bite my tongue until my words taste like yours.
I know how to make myself small,
how to fold my dreams into tiny, quiet things,
tuck them into my pockets so they don’t take up space.
I have practiced this for years—
learning the way a person can disappear
without ever leaving the room.
I have worn faces that weren’t mine,
molded my laughter to match yours,
shaped my silence into something softer,
something easier to hold.
But tell me—
when I have emptied myself for you,
when I have become everything you need,
will you ever ask what I was before?
Will you ever miss what I had to lose
just to stand beside you?
Or will I always be the outline of a person,
a ghost in a body that was never mine to keep?
~ Ola
you fit just the way you are and not how you should be.
This is so well thought out. To fit into something that will not contain you requires compromise, chipping away, loss etc; and the irony of it all is the effort put into transforming into an inferior version of yourself, almost like Internalized masochism.